haiz...
mommy called at 1130 just now
and said she's not coming home again tonight.
sad
sleeping in her room to accompany chomel sleep

visited sara at work first
ate lunch with her
bought for mommy a gift using the taka vouchers she gave
took so long to decide
perfume, lipstick, brooch, key ring
in the end bought a v unique looking brooch
was sooo excited to give it to her
but
must wait longer then can gv
take care of urself sara.
get well soon

went to spinelli to do proj with charlene just now
ila n leo were there too
charlene brought for me honey lemon drink =)
thanks dear =)
found all our articles for Metropolitan newspaper
spinelli is such a nice place to do proj
esp at night =)
ila n leo went off aft they were done
uber hungry so charlene n i made our way to dinner at braddell coz of matt
and then that guy PANG SEH us
but. nvm

charlene wanted to cut hair budden all closed le
so we went home.

dunno why im feeling like this
shitty mood
was fine til... til.... dunno when
i think nothing in life lasts...

sometimes i dunno whether my friends understand me
do they know how i feel?
do they know that im feeling torn in between?
do they know that im trying my best not to ignore/forget them?
i know i cant please everyone
but i know i cannot split myself into two and please everyone
am i really that bad a friend?
do those who treat me nicely and say im their friend, really see me as a friend?
or are they just putting on a front?
am i really their friend? or just someone they see as a nuisance?
in their eyes, am i even worthy as a friend?

i cant even manage to spend time with my best friend for goodness sake
even if i miss her alot
maybe she doesnt see me as a best friend anymore
i feel so guilty!!
im sooo sorryyy ='(
god this is depressing

im sad because i might have to gv up something i dont want to
i cant manage my time well
im running from one thing to the next
always feeling guilty if i leave out something,
not living up to the expectation

its now 130am
and im still wondering
am i your friend? or foe?

i have a bad feeling that whatever happiness i had with you is short lived
thinking of u always makes me smile though
i don think im good enough for you
sometimes, what you think is good, might not be
i dont wanna appear desperate. sorry if i did
i feel sad if i have to gv up feeling this way for you