Sunday, June 24, 2007
camp is over
and once again, im sick
i get sick more often these 2 years
then my 4 years of secondary school combined
had alot of fun
but starting of camp, alr must do pumping
coz ppl came in late
s'ok
did alot of games
slept uber late coz i couldnt sleep
n coz super cold
in the end had like 1 hr of sleep only
2nd day was hectic
games and games n games
had night walk
i think it went pretty well
except last part
again slept super late
had like 2 hours of sleep only
3rd day, hygenic kissing
seniors won again
had to go back early though
coz someone in the family passed away
sad
but ppl come and go
went over to bik aton's house aft showering at home
slept for 18 hours when i reached home
today, went again for kenduri
sigh tired
made me feel scared
that the people around me will leave me too
then last night
i had this dream
that my mother too left me
and i remembered crying n crying
and i woke up knowing that i slept n cried as well
dunno why
but i feel cranky, on the verge of breaking down, tired and i just don know what to do
not doing my imm script
not doing french
what am i doing up then?
i miss her
she's away again
and the house feels so empty
last week, memories kept catching up with me
friends tt i haven talked to for mths, seen for mths,
text me, called me
sigh
i wish i was back in primary school
or in secondary school
i would do alot of things differently
alot of things i wish i didnt do
things that no one or maybe few would believe i did
alot of things i regret
alot of things i want to change
during the funeral,
i missed my late grandmother
her pampering me,
buying me breakfast,
her scent which i can still remember
wishing sometimes, i was better to her
should i take mc tmr?
see how
but got presentation. sian.
don feel like gg to sch tmr
miss you, but somehow, i feel that it's just one sided
i feel stupid for liking u so much
11:14:00 pm