i suddenly feel very shitty
emo partner where are you?
haiz... dreams were really meant for dreaming
wishes never come true
and miracles happen only once in a million

i think i should just give up
there's no point
and its impossibly hopeless for me to carry on
coz i dont see it gg anywhere

no matter what others may think
i still think in the 18th century
in that a girl does not woo or court the guy she likes

am i wrong in that thinking?
but really, there's so much a girl can do
right?
the feelings inside me feel like bursting out whenever i feel i cant keep it anymore

do you know how i feel?
sometimes i think u do
but sometimes i think u dont but the rest around u can see it
am i that translucent in my feelings?

i know alot of people have been trying to help me
and i really really really do appreciate your help
but im sorry i have to disappoint all of you
i know it seems cowardly of me
but i am a coward
im afraid of getting hurt
im afraid of taking risks

i dont know if i'll be happier
i dont know if i'll get over you
but i dont want to embarrass myself
and i know i will

u know they saying
would you rather be with someone u love
or someone that loves you?
like the coward that i am,
i'd rather be with someone that loves me
provided i can see myself loving the person in the future.

i'm sorry
so sorry
to all those who've cared, helped and been through this with me
to disappoint u all like that

but somehow, i'd still be waiting for you
if ever u have a change of heart [which will be a miracle and u know what they say abt miracles]
i'll be happy
more then happy

shit i hate this
damn it