wishing and
hoping and
thinking and
praying

planning and
dreaming.

lol
so suitable to my thoughts now.
coz lately, i havent been feeling very happy these past few days
haven laughed alot since i cant remember when
laughed abit here and there
but haven been actually laughing
self pitying myself =S
yucks!
my mood been down lately.
nothing i do seems to make it go away.
-dancing... still there
-bowling.. still there
-at home... still there
-reading... still there
-watching videos... still there

just came back from OCC[orchid country club]
went bowling with mommy and cousins
been awhile since i bowled with them.
kak sara and abg faizal just bought a new phone N73. red colour
SUPER NICE but, im not a nokia gal.
those two ah, forever must have the same phone one. lol
so mushy.

k not my good day to bowl. improved every game but started with 50points first game
damn sucky ok...
last game was 119. not bad la. played 3 games in total.

aft tt went walk walk and shopped at the pasar malam with mommy
satisfied my cravings for durian again. hehehehehe
mommy told me alot of sad things while we were walking
so i almost cried.
hehehe
lost so many dear ones these past few weeks.
dont want to lose anymore.

haiz... makes me thing to myself
when will the perfect opportunity come?
when will it be right to express myself?

a friend gave me some "given" advice:
since the person u liked is an open person..and that u're closed to him..
and u noe that it can nvr happen btwn the two..
jus be as open as u can wif him while u still hev the chance to b cos u noe he'll be treating u the same way too..
she told me that u will tend to find happiness somehow frm this cos u r wif him n u can nvr be any happier wenever u're around him..
she told me to treasure this moment n jus b ur usual self as long as u can wen u're wif him..

haiz....
i wish you'd give me a sign somehow to show how you really feel.
there's always hints here and there but never a full meaning.
so im left guessing and assuming
which i hate. because it makes me feel insecure.