i dont know what i'm doing.

just now grp meeting, got major conflict.
haiz... felt soo shitty.
haiz... so long since i cried because of competition
and grp related stuff.
the last time was like SYF 2005.
cried coz of my section, coz of penny and my duet.

now, is like coz of lack of motivation, feel so like wanna quit,
lack of group spirit, haiz.. almost lack of everything la.
feel like not part of the grp like tt. =(
i can't handle that sorta stuff.
i'll just end up crying while letting my thoughts out.
while speaking my mind.
haiz...

shit la. exactly 2 more months to comp.
and i'm feeling like this. wth.

sorry cass coz i wasn't much help just now.
i can't deal with tt sorta stuff, too emotional
i'll just end up crying when i'm speaking my mind.

i need a shoulder to cry on..
everytime someone from the grp quits, i keep thinking that i should do the same
but
i'll tell myself that i should gain the experience, pull through coz im stronger than that.