haiz...
i feel so demoralised
i feel so un-motivated, if there even is such a word as unmotivated.

got back dfvp results and finance. sian. both Cs. Finance expected.
But somehow i expected more for dfvp?
ok improved la but. WTH. soooo..... =((( saddening.
I haven't even got 1 not even 1! A! DAMN IT!
so disheartening!
I really really really HOPE that I get an A for DFVP written test leh.
or something. SS. SHIT.
I think SS ICA3 I'll get another C. or D!

I'm sooo not motivated for DANCEWORKS!
After dance and before I can be sooo hyper.
But when the time comes for dance pract, i feel so down, so low, so... whatever la.
WHY?
I dont know. Probably coz I can't seem to choreo.
Probably coz I don't dance as well as like ALL my group members.
I think I'm probably the worst dancer in the group.
So sad! The guys are all like strong.
The girls, hmm i think better then me la =(((
so disheartening.
No motivation.

Doesn't help that you're acting different around me nowadays.
What happened?


I'm still tired and still in the wedding mood.
NOT MINE! but my cousin's during the sat and sun tt just past.
WAH SUPER SUPER HAPPENING!
and i didnt get enough sleep
coz i couldn't sleep and coz slept late and woke up super early.
it was super fun.
Like Abg faizal's wedding,
of course Lagau was there to escort the kereta pengantin[bride-groom car]
Not as many as Abg Faizal's wedding but still super alot.
hahaha. nice to see.
envious of them to have found each other. =D

caught up with zafrie, abg ridzman, kak sara. yeah
haiz... made me think of love.
I think Nad has it right.
There's no such thing as the one and love.
If there is such a thing as a nice guy, you don't see him around.
lol.

I dont know why I'm feeling so depressed. =(
I'm getting sicker by the day.
Mommy wants me to go Polyclinic for full body checkup but I never have the time.

Please dont treat me indifferently.
I need a body to lean on.