what we had
no doubt, again, i made some stupid mistakes [i always do]
and now i regret it hearing it repeated by you
my friends were right
all u wanted was that
what u offered, proved that
i must've been in the wrong state of mind
all i can offer, is an apology, for doing this to you again
and i am not like her
you know that better
emotional blackmail won work with me this time around
if u regret leaving her, it just proves that u wanted me to replace her
go back then i'm sure she'd appreciate it
i don understand why such a small thing, must turn into such a huge deal
why must someone be so petty over a small matter
i've apologized, maybe it didnt matter at that moment
but i wont chase, i wont grovel, i wont beg again
because everytime u're like this, i give in.
why the hell must i always be the one to ask what's wrong?
ok enough about depressing matters
and friends who dont know how to believe in you
the first free friday til sunday i'll have
what do i do?
hahaha
shall continue my anime and drama watching again
i know i didn't make the wrong decision
pls dont break my heart
2:12:00 pm
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childhood memories, released
a smile which i could not contained formed
as my happiness evolved
i couldn't help but giggle like a child
thank you for the greatest gift ever. =)
11:51:00 pm
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Melaka/Melacca trip
The first time i felt so peaceful, so serene that I could hear birds chirping around me when i wake up like literally.
I think this is the first time I stayed over in a kampong. I’ve been to kampongs, stayed over for a day but never slept overnight before. I didn’t stay in an old wooden kampong, but a normal Singapore, looking terrace made of stone. The house was circled by a garden that had mango trees and rambutan trees.
The only irritating thing was the mosquitoes. I’m afraid that every time it bit me, I’d get dengue or aids or something. LOL. Ok that was mean but yeah. And of course no kampong would be a kampong without lizards. Omfg i think i’ve been cured of my lizard phobia being and hearing the lizards every hour once at least. Unless im in the car or shopping centre.
I’m typing this blog entry on my lappy MSWORD since there’s no internet. Sitting on the veranda and in front, beside me are all the neighbours.
The town is a small one in Melaka, Durian Tunggal (Lone Durian), where everyone knows everybody. It’s still a nice place with air conditioning and hot water. LOL. And I adapted quite well to this environment.
It was a 2.5 hour journey from second link. No jam because well, its second link. As night fell, I looked at the sunset as the car drove past fields, coconut and rubber plantations. When the moon rose and the sun finally set and the sky was blanketed with stars, the road became super dark at some areas coz there wasn’t any road lights. I slept for about half an hour and when i awoke, the road infront of me was dark, even darker then driving under the tunnel.
I ate the best ever nasi lemak for breakfast. Hahaha. Yup nasi lemak.
Went to this kenduri (some sorta family gathering) yesterday. Kampong ppl are so kpo and they like to stare i realise. Ok of course i didn’t know that i’d be going to tat kenduri so i was of course in jeans. -.- but still, well... there was this one makcik who really pissed me off saying my magnet bracelet was fake. Nuuuuuget. -.- so annoying. So what if you payed RM$300+?? Bleahx
And for dinner yesterday i had the 2nd best fried kway teow ever. First still goes to Lestari at Yishun. =)) My favourite local dish is fried kway teow and nasi lemak have i ever told you? And if tom yam weren’t a thai dish it’ll be my top most favourite. LOL.
Slept early coz there’s basically nothing to do and watch here since im not 5 yrs old i can’t play the toys that ain has. -.-
And the final day, travelled ALL the way to segamat which took almost 2 hours of driving!!! to eat satay
but i have to admit, the best satay i ever ate. I ate 14 sticks of beef and chicken satay ALLL BY MYSELF! haha fattening
*caution do not read if feel squirmish*
The owner of the satay place was again one of my mom's friend's relatives.
They have this cute cat which was given to them by someone who found it
His rear left feet had been purposely chopped off
when i saw him, i wanted to cry and beat the shit out of the person who'd done it
how can anyone be so fucking evil!!!
CURSES UPON THAT PERSON!
the cut was clean as i saw the bone.. straight cut. =s
my mom was alr in tears
i thought of my cats at home then and how lucky they were
you know why his legs got chopped?
he was stealing food. FOOD! can u imagine?!?
every living thing has the right to live!
=(
here's a picture of the sad little(now happy) cat
and thank you so very much for accompanying me when i was there
if not for you, i'd have died of boredom. =) love love
once i got back home, sleepless nights welcomed me. -.-
projects due...
slept a total of only like 3 hours max from sun-monday. hahaha
reached home and die on my bed. LOL
a new pathway has just begun
and as i begin to walk on the path, full of possibilities, happiness and probably sadness,
i know i've made the right decision in stepping on that first brick on the road
because i wont be walking on it alone
10:09:00 am
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been awhile since i updated.
well, i got my wish
i'll be going overseas after like so loong
to melacca
for 3 days..
by car..
oh well we cant always have what we wish to fly in an aeroplane. =)
hahaha
i need a job
then i can save up for our thailand or wherever trip next year
right? ;) hehehe
the thing is,
i feel guilty to go and take off for a holiday
when there's sooo much work to be done.
that's why i'll be bringing lappy there to do work.
not that there's an internet connection there
but i'll be doing ep and ip i guess
siaaaaan
leaving soon at 4..
don miss me too much ppl.. [if you don't miss me i'l be sad though]
in case anything happens to me [touch wood]
ila, charlene, iqah, sara, cin, matt, eoin, leo, kel, bez
love u ppl even though i always bully u sometimes.. ;)
ttfn!!
leave you with these pictures!

sara's photooshop lesson 1! there is another lesson picture but shan't upload it in case i offend someone. ;))
2:28:00 pm
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seriously, a massive workload has been piling up and now i cant see my desk apart from my laptop and dressing table
im in love with ralph lauren hot and body shop vanilla spice!!
can bathe and drink and sleep in them the whole day. hahahaha
niwaes, my weekend isnt entirely free i have to study for ftt actually which is this coming tuesday
shit
i need a job! anyone got lobang??
job job job..
money money money
im finally gg overseas the following weekend
but
to melacca
coz its my mom's thanksgiving holiday so she wants to go melacca
-.-
oh well better than nothing
haiz...
oh i got myself a new lappy! hurray
jealous?
don need la... acer one again. haah
mommy won it in a lucky draw during her sch's computer course.
yay!
the only sucky part is that it uses integrated graphics card
and im still trying to adapt to vista... haha
using it now actually. nyiahahaha
its 3am now and im still awake..
bored...
went back to sch on fri to hand in report at 9am.. so early
i don have sch on fri..
then went to leo's house to play texas holdem(i dunno how to spell anyhow one)
and we all had a great laugh til we cried and had cheek and stomac cramps at ila...
hey kelvin now we have a new name for you!!
tong tong!! hahahahahha damn funny
well to all of us there it was anyways...
i shall go and nuah now...
2:43:00 am
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my day just got from bad to worst
mom wanted me to accompany her to weddings but i was too tired from projects to go and i really am sick mom
spent 2 days finishing up PR report and finally its done. yay
i wanna put exclamation mark but my silly cat is sleeping on my laptop SO NOW I CANT TYPE ANYTHING OVER A. AND NOW HE SLEPT ON THE CAPS SO NOW IM BLOGGING IN CAPS... -.-
WHY DO PEOPLE ALWAYS THINK THAT THEY OWN A BRAND?
pause my cat changed position so now i can type normally..
wtheck must u be a surfer or a beach person to use volcom? no. i have a friend who loves the brand
must you be a sports person or a hip-hop fan to use adidas sports gear and "respect me"? no. i have friends who don even run or do sports and they carry adidas
so what is the deal? i know i shouldn't care because heck i know im not a poser
something cathes my eye, and i buy it.
memories of the past keep returning coz of current events
pls don let me be disappointed again
i know i have no right to be
and i know i shouldnt be
but i don want to regret again
u're not the only one who's not emotionally stable at the moment
im not as well
i haven had a decent sleep havent had a non-tearful day since u came back into my life
but maybe we're not fated to be together
maybe u're missing me for reasons that arent right
and maybe im missing u for the wrong reasons as well
but why cant we go one day without arguing?
why can u give someone else so much of urself but never to me?
why am i expecting so much of something i know wont turn out good?
i need to know where this will lead before i take the next step forward or back
im sorry for pressuring you but i have the right to be
you hurt me so much more than u know
and i don want to hurt anymore
someone please pull me back onto my feet.
lend me your shoulders to cry on again
and engulf me in a big hug and assure me that things will be alright
2:14:00 pm
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2:01:00 pm
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Singapore Slingers vs Perth Wildcats.
We won 112-105! =D
they havent won in awhile so i guess im their good luck charm.
anyone for a game this weekend?? slingers vs adelaide 36ers..
we had front row seats just now so i got an uber good look at the wildcats since the seats were behind their bench.
well not diretly behind, those are reserved for the sponsors, vips and what have you.
$17 but we got em for free..
thanks! =D
This is Tom Garlepp wildcat player. he reminds me of Clark Kent! hahaha but uber cute.. and uber TALL!!!!! 203cm can!!!!!!!!!!!!
Their tallest player stands at 213cm!!!!! monster!
McDonald scoring! GO SLINGERS!

and after the game got the autographs of some of the slingers as well as pictures
i felt DAMN SHORT!!!!!!!!!
the tallest guy is like 208cm!!!!
aaaaaaaand.. this is him...
DAVID DONALDSON
well duh i felt short next to him and almost all his team members... I'm only like reaching his chest can!!!!!!!
ben knight... see his hands are around my shoulders! =D
john fitzgerald
and this hottie at 182cm.. still taller than you leonard!!! SHANE McDONALD!! isn't he just droool worthy!?! hahahaha damn hot and cute pls...
this is the team's top shooter
rod grizzard. suits him coz he reminds me of a grizzly bear...
oh well.. time to do work now.. =))
had my share of fun...
at one point peter crawford from perth stripped coz his jersey was too sweaty and had blood. damn it damn hot. you could hear the crowd whistling la! hahaha and i of course was like WAH!!! but i took too long to take out my camera so there's no pict. TOO BAD!!!!
and there was this group of guys who had a banner with "CALL 812......." LOL can't remember the number. *shrugs* hahahaha
saw some of my students from SAS. who would've thought.
9:44:00 pm
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Jane Austen's words in Persuasion.
Have you ever read it?
If you haven't I recommend you do
Jane Austen might have some chim and complex writing skills
but it makes a wonderful read
a classic
i woke up at farking 730 today and lesson was at 8am
FABULOUS
stayed up til 530am to do work and this is what i get
and because i rushed to bathe and get ready and booked a cab which caused me $14 coz of booking fee and morning sur-charge,
i got a freaking migraine. expected
always have stupid headaches when i rush aft waking up.
pfffft
and i looked fugly today coz i wore glasses to cover up my uber huge eyebags
and i farking failed my FTT!
STUPID SHITNESS!
RAAAAAAAAAR!!
spent like $11 to renew and register again for ftt
which is on farking january 16 2008!!!!!
wtf!!!!
today is a lousy day
it was soooo freaking hot that i perspired in the rain
in the freaking rain can u believe it??
oh well with the bad comes the good
saw the two eye-candies in sch but of course i was looking fugly so i decided to like shy away
hahahaha
and i got to watch my the lake house dvd
and of course....
i feel sucky first time for ip felt like nvr do anything
no first time for any proj i felt so useless...
it sucks...
worried abt peer evaluation...
11:43:00 pm
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allow me this entry
then i shall study for ftt and do sch work
I've learnt alot of things tonight
I've learnt to trust my friends more
and i realised i need to learn to trust them more
and i love all you guys even though it sounds sappy
but thank you for being there for me
and i appreciate it much more than i can say
for being honest and true
forgs are disgusting
but its time
for the frog to hop onto another lilypad
before the frog sinks it and drowns itself along with it
sorry for almost sinking you
its been awhile since i talked to my mom
but i did a few nights back
a loooooooooong talk
and poured my heart out
gg study for my ftt now
then gg do some work...
12:23:00 am
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