sugar, spice, and everything nice ♡

projects piling up again
yayness
got back ica 1 grades for randal.
YAY! B! hahaha

so far, happy with my grades. but have a feeling will be sad soon
jessica's mmr

my friend whom i thought went to brunei alr
is still in singapore
but will be gg to brunei for a year on monday.
sadded
BBBOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
misses misses

need to start mugging soon
cannot afford to be slack
gg to study for randal i guess
and start on french this weekend

the class has started meeting for our projects
we should all set a timetable so that project meetings don clash
ahaha

i am soo dying for holidays even though one just ended
lol

scared for my grades
scared i'll be stressed

haven been dancing for awhile now
cant seem to have the mood for it
for what?
im not good at it

on a lighter note,
i have u torrent open,
4 msn windows,
and bridge to terabithia
and tmr, no today, i have JW ica at 1030

lets talk about cars
i found out that there's a lamborghini club in singapore. -.-
rich bastards
saw 2 of them at meritus mandarin yesterday.
wah freaking super dope man
one yellow diablo and one black gallardo

aiya... will never be that rich to afford one
what i want to own when i grow up is just

1) stay in a penthouse or just stay in a condo [so i can use the pool n gym without travelling so much]
2) own my own car. possible a mazda rx8 or 7 =p
3) handphone that is super efficient [everything in a phone]
4) money. hahaha [to buy alot of stuff]

i dont think im good enough for you
looking at all those that have the same feelings i do for you
they have more in common with you
and they're a way better person then i am

12:08:00 am
YYYYY

angry
angry
angry

do not like people bad mouthing me,
spreading rumours about me
which are NOT true
behind me back

bleahx
irritating.
annoying
stupid
loathsome
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh....

at times like this, sometimes
i question my friends =(
and trust becomes unstable
like
who really likes you
who is just putting up a front in front of you
and who is backstabbing you behind ur back

if you dont know me,
you dont have the right to judge me
and i know you dont know me
coz then, you wouldn't be saying all those untrue things about me
but go ahead
i realised i shouldn't care at all
coz i have REAL FRIENDS
who understand me, know me better then you

but, what wrong have i done to you
that i do not know about
that makes you say all those things?

whatever, not going to ponder anymore
make me more frustrated.

went to watch fantastic four just now
not bad movie
never cried. [first movie or one of the few] that didnt make me cry =D
hahaha
im learning to be stronger
so
don't you dare me me weak! *sticks out tongue*

12:36:00 am
YYYYY

thank you ila for the song. =)
elliot yamin's wait for you is still my current obsession
but this is nice too...

Just So You Know
Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

sick sick sick. pui

again,
another ica
i swear someone hates me and is cursing me
again, im suey
and matthew was laughing so hard and loudly at our luck. -.-
shall not talk abt it
aaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggghhhhhhhh

angry angry
and tmr got french make up lesson
angry angry!

nothing is making me have the mood, energy to go to sch nowadays
except seeing my friends
and the fact tt i'll have ntg to do at home
but its sooooo tempting to take mc

should i go watch fantastic four tmr?
still deciding.

wannna get money money money
haiz... projects are piling up one above the other
i should start my french soon
like now!
haha

random post
i wanna see stars
i want to star gaze
where there's no PYTHONS!
yishun sucks
pardon me if i seem so suaku like nvr see stars before
but there's just something abt star gazing that makes me smile =)
i always miss the shooting stars that pass by singapore. how sad

you can never see such clear starry skies in singapore. sadded

if there is, lemme know

i'll run there the next clear night

i want to sit and watch aeroplanes fly
the airport viewing hall can be a nice place to be when its quiet
just watching the planes come and go
ok maybe im just wierd
but yeah

11:30:00 pm
YYYYY

dunno what im doing watching after hours -.-

felt sicker today. =S

but i still went to school and did my presentation for imm

and i passed imm test!!! WOOOHOO! hahaha...

lalala. sniff sniff

went to yishun to slack with ila n matthew aft schoooool....

lalalala....

craapped and crapppedddd

singing to from this moment on..
shania twain and bryan adams

from this momeeeeeent you are the oooooone

right beside you

is where i beloooong

from this....... moment ooooonnnn....

going crazy.....

bla bla bla...

duno what im typing alsoooo

i think at one point of time or another,

a girl has ever thought of becoming a teacher.

i've dreamt of becoming a teacher,

author

actress

an air stewardess[still do]

a psychiatrist
and now, i don't know what i wanna be

obviously someone in the media industry

though i still dont know what to be

maybe a magazine columnistor a journalist

or back to becoming an author.

though not one in singapore.

studying overseas is freaking expensive as i found out.

haiz...

dont think my grades will ever bring me to university

bleahx

i wanna go on holiday

to exotic paris

to beautiful mauritius beaches

to old castles in ireland

to mountainous switzerland

to kawai japan

to dramatic south korea

or even phuket, langkawi, cruise

anywhere

really really cant wait for next holidays

need a break

and i havent been dancin for like months

cant wait for harry potter

wanna watch

1) transformers

2) fantastic four

3) ocean's 13

4) HARRY POTTER order of the pheonix

5) nancy drew =p

11:11:00 pm
YYYYY

camp is over

and once again, im sick

i get sick more often these 2 years

then my 4 years of secondary school combined

had alot of fun

but starting of camp, alr must do pumping

coz ppl came in late

s'ok

did alot of games

slept uber late coz i couldnt sleep

n coz super cold

in the end had like 1 hr of sleep only

2nd day was hectic

games and games n games

had night walk

i think it went pretty well

except last part

again slept super late

had like 2 hours of sleep only

3rd day, hygenic kissing

seniors won again

had to go back early though

coz someone in the family passed away

sad

but ppl come and go

went over to bik aton's house aft showering at home

slept for 18 hours when i reached home

today, went again for kenduri

sigh tired

made me feel scared

that the people around me will leave me too

then last night

i had this dream

that my mother too left me

and i remembered crying n crying

and i woke up knowing that i slept n cried as well

dunno why

but i feel cranky, on the verge of breaking down, tired and i just don know what to do

not doing my imm script

not doing french

what am i doing up then?

i miss her

she's away again

and the house feels so empty

last week, memories kept catching up with me

friends tt i haven talked to for mths, seen for mths,

text me, called me

sigh

i wish i was back in primary school

or in secondary school

i would do alot of things differently

alot of things i wish i didnt do

things that no one or maybe few would believe i did

alot of things i regret

alot of things i want to change

during the funeral,

i missed my late grandmother

her pampering me,

buying me breakfast,

her scent which i can still remember

wishing sometimes, i was better to her

should i take mc tmr?

see how

but got presentation. sian.

don feel like gg to sch tmr

miss you, but somehow, i feel that it's just one sided

i feel stupid for liking u so much

11:14:00 pm
YYYYY

CAMP IS TODAY!!!!!
YIPPPEEE DOOO! hahaha

cant wait for camp camp camp!
mingling, games, etc. =DD
my bag looks like im gg on a 1 week vacation instead of 3 days
super alot of clothes can!
blame the games! hahahaha

well this is elliot yamin's wait for you
my current obsession =D

i never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you
& I’m wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I’m all alone,

Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it’s a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don”t know what else i can do
Don’t tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I’m fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I’ll wait for you

[Verse 2]
It’s been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can’t do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain’t like that
Why can’t you look at me, your still in love with me
Don’t leave me crying.

[Bridge]
Baby why can’t we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

i miss you
do you?

2:46:00 am
YYYYY

bleahx
tired

went cycling just now at east coast
with charlene, ila, matt, leo, cindy n habez

us!!!

suppose to meet at 12
but erm
yeah
most of us were late
hahaha
took 966 which was SUPPOSE to be a 1/2 hour or 35min journey
but the bus driver drived DAMN DAMN SLOW!
WHAT'S UP WITH BUS DRIVERS NOWADAYS LO!!!!!
OR MAYBE TODAY'S ONLY! =s

so went to cycle the 2 people one with leo
coz i still not confident of riding single =p
so we cycled and cycled to the other side til nrscc tanah merah safra there
super far
but we kept stopping along the way to take pict, sit down, relax by the beach.

me, matt, charlene, ila n leo[above]
charlene dunno how to take photos!

swapped with cindy and habez half way
and i rode the bicycle.
=D so proud of myself!
manage to cycle alone for like... 40 mins?
hahaha.
wanted to cycle to och but too far

niwaes, super SUAY thing happ
was cycling back
at this narrow path along the side of the road
then got stupid mat
dunno how to stop n give way to me
then i panicked coz too close and lost control of it
coz i still not used to it
then i fell
and the skin around my big toe
peeled
and bled n bled
uber pain
shocked
so i teared
oops
damn paiseh. sorry ah =S

so v fast, cindy made me laugh. thx. =D
then we cycled back, me on the 2 seater again with leo.

aft 4 hrs of cycling, ate BK.
super hungry....

then we sat by the beach on the rocks
and chit chatted til the sun set, and we felt droplets of rain
then walked to Mc and continued our chat
and cam whored more
then walked to bus stop

on the way home also
super eventful can
first, 31 took DAMN FREAKING LONG to arrive
ila said the bus driver was probably wanking. -.-
walao ey 2 135s passed by lo
idiot driver
then when it finally arrived,
the bus driver still SO SLOWLY DRIVE
suppose to take 15mins, in the end, 30mins.
BLOODY CHICKEN MCNUGGET!

THEN THEN THEN
KNOW WATS THE BEST THING!?!?!
GOT 31 RIGHT BEHIND US ALSO
AND IT WENT PASS OUR BUS AFT FOLLOWING BEHIND US AWHILE
BLOOOODY FREAKING BASTARD DRIVER!
walaoooooooooo ey!!!!!!!

then..............................
know what's the other good thing????????????????
everytime it drives til the traffic light turns RED!!!
and it stops!!!!!
WAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!
can u see the words? it says GAY WORLD

shall not say who ah curse our bus 31.... =p
ahahhahahahahaha
thanks ila....=p lol
nvm la.... angry passengers on board 31!
angry mat![george clooney is soooooooo not hot]

FINALLy, it reach tpy interchange,
took mrt back home...
eventful day
i had fun
thanks guys

wished u were there...

12:11:00 am
YYYYY

argh im sick again
and i need sleep...
everytime i wanna sleep in
sure got something on one.
today, is father's day dinner

so yest went out with eoin n matthew
coz it was eoin's "last day" according to matthew
-.- like he's migrating or having some terminally ill disease.
hahahaha
went to novena.
big mistake coz they were having mini soccer tournaments there.
matt said it was my mat heaven
more like mat HELL! =S

walked and walked around.
the guys bought cardigans...
lol... had such a hard time deciding

ate my oyster mee sua. haha
there one not bad la...
had a fun time. hahaha

aft tt went to meet the gals at city hall coz we were going to work at rouge.
promoting jim bean.
coolness.
3 hours $60. hahaha
yay! i got moolah!!!!

niwaes so we had to put one this white shirt, white shorts, high cut white boots, a white scarf and a cowboy hat. -.-
all white and all saying jim bean. duh. lol

hahaha pretty fun. the crowds kinda friendly.
the people there friendlier... haha
saw some people we know.
we had to walk around and promote jim bean
abit scary coz we scared that people bcome touchy... =S
but luckily dont have
so there were lots of shouting into the ear coz of the music
there was a super duper dop live band. WOOOHOOO!

and it was who's ur daddy's night prior to father's day which is today.
so there were girls in sexy school uniforms chatting up with the customers.
vi, gina, jo n i just walk around and promote jim bean
while the other girls bar top danced. lol
not bad ba. hahah got customer buy! =D

and then came the not so fun part.
had to dance. in boots! walao ey. killers.
my legs were super aching. =S
aft tt time passed pretty quickly.

not bad, had fun. BUT
i dunno if i want to do it again. =S

then we were on our way home alr. =D
i smelt of cigarattes.
and knocked out on the bed
on the computer again. oopsie

and now im off to bed again.

i'll miss you...
i already am..

2:20:00 pm
YYYYY

my jellybeans all finished. =(
well not all. left coconut flavour and popcorn.
not nice one. eeew.
someone pls buy for me my jelly beans.... =D
blueberry pie, south seas kiwi, candy floss, lemon n lime! yummy..
ok fattening

went out with mommy just now.
my cousins n aunt joined us.
went to TM of alllllll places.
so far. =S but nvm coz mom drived.
shall go register for theory next week. =D

shopped shopped shopped. yayness!
finally bought my red converse high cut sneakers
which matthew says i wont wear and it'd be put to more use if i gave it to him
nonsense.
i will wear it! hahaha

and finalyl bought my gray jeans! =D
haha. $26! =D
niwaes my legs were killing me at the end of the day.
coz i was wearing heels...
bleahx...

ate at delifrance where my cousins and i tried our hardest to pronounce the food names in french. LOL.
mommy shopped alot too. =S

i wanna do blue highlights.
or should i do green instead?
anyone know anywhere cheap but good? =p
hahaha

and my cousin got herself a pink PSP!!!
I WANT ONE!!!!! BLEAHX!
mommy says she'll pay half for me if i can come up with the other half.
WALAO!!!
I WANT MOOLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
WORRRRRRRRRK
but not with my aunt. NO WAY MAN!
no mattew how tempting the pay is. =D
hmm but should i?
$40 per day leh...
hmmm

sadly, didnt cam whore today.
dont know why.
too busy playing PSP. oops.
anyone kind enough to get me one for.......... christmas?
hahaha

im happy happy. =)

10:32:00 pm
YYYYY

lalalala.
its 315am!
and im still awake.
again.
as usual.
well, today went out with mommy for high tea with her SAS colleague

who's going back to US on the 23rd.
delicious yummy food.
sorry matt n eoin for making u guys wait. =p

headed to taka to meet sara
where sara n matt made jokes about bananas, banana splits and juice, etc.
basically had a laugh at eoin's expense. LMAO.
leonard joined us at taka.
then headed to heeren to window shop.

iqah her friend aini joined us there.
supposedly matthew was to buy his communist looking shirt
and eoin, his sandals but they didnt.
so we went to far east to eat dinner and walk somemore
freaking shit pattaya noodles were SUPER SPICY
i couldnt finish it. =S
bleahx

walked round n round
in the end, its the girls that shopped.
i bought 2 belts.
iqah n aini bought jelly shoes $15!!!!!! OMG. cheap.

and the shop aunty n uncle tried to con eoin of his money
cardigan costing what $46/ $48
he wanted give $2 discount only coz last piece.
he thinks we're idiots
then somemore keep forcing it on him.
-.-
like we so easily kana bully?

so aft tt slacked at starbucks wheelock
saw syazwan there.
damn it. didnt know he transferred to starbucks alr.
=S
niwaes, cam whored
then went back home

cam whored the most in the train

doing the craziest of craziest of things.

3:14:00 am
YYYYY

my room, house is a mess
like got train wreck
like we just moved in. =S

mommy's friend moving back to US
so she gave us most of her furniture
including her bed, cupboards, and an unopened bookcase
which she shipped from US but didnt open for 3 years
omg! hahahaha

niwaes, damn tired from cleaning my room and rearranging everything.
bleahx.
and my memory card cannot safely remove!
damn it damn it.

had camp meeting just now.
tiring.
ppl all come late.

then went to meet fadila and we went vivo to watch SHREK 3!!!!!!!
the baby ogre and baby donkey dragons ARE SOOOOOOOOOO CUUUUTEEEEEEE!
we saw suhaizad n joyce at banquet vivo
went to cam whore before our movie started

super duper nice n funny! =)))

af tt cam whored somemore. =))
i missed her. hehehe

my favourite picture![above]

went to tpy aft tt to meet matthew n eoin
sat at coffee bean
where the 3 of them all gang up against me and bullied me.
sadded.
even YOU FADILA. =(
lol dont care.. sat n crapped n got free drink coz matthew's drink had some stupid thing inside.
went back at arnd 10+

and saw someone moving house under my block
well i thought so.
budden its my dad, uncle n cousin helping to bring stuff up. =)

1:45:00 am
YYYYY

me, gina n sharon

vivi n me =)

gina n me... =)

juniors+seniors

sharon n me =)

FB FB FB!!! =D didnt know we had such a huge no. of ppl

SHOHAI!!!

yokoi!

cam whoring! sharon, gina, me n eileen =DD

cam whoring at mrt station =p

silly juniors

eileen n me

eileen, vi, jsharon, ing wen, me n jo

dunno what im doing online

YES! FINALLY AFTER SO LONG!
meeting my best gal today!
budden have to go sch first. =S
haiz...
will blog more at the end of TODAY.
see how. hahaha.

went to watch senior's competition at far east today.
they didnt win.
as expected freakin nutz won.
the act cool and show off guy again.
*PUKES*

aft tt cheong-ed to expo to watch BIG GROOVE CONCERT!!!
FB PERFORMING!
WOOHOO
WCO!!!! SHOHAI! YUKUI!!! hahaha
took picts with them. =DD
overall, the concert was damn dope.
hahaha.
FB YEAH!!!!!!!!
there was OSchool, Street Souls, LADC, WHITE RIDING HOOD FBODZ, NRA, ermm
i forgot the THAI BBOY GROUP. =S oops
AND WCO!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEETS!!!!!!!

cam whored damn damn alot today.
picts will be up soon

aft concert went to dinner at BK Changi Airport.
took 858 with FB peeps
not bad, today bonded alot with the juniors.
GO SISTERS! hahaha

1:50:00 am
YYYYY