sugar, spice, and everything nice ♡

a miracle happened today
my dad did smtg for me
he changed the batteries on my watch
i know doesnt sound so big but
well you wouldnt understand
still, i wont forgive him for everything he did in the past

niwaes had dance today
was suppose to meet charlene to get media buying book
but i ermm was late so decided not to
went to dance
practised girl's hiphop for next wed performance
haiyoo. tiring
aft tt went in for junior's showcase

everyone black face. haiyooo
not a gd day
;)

went for dinner at s11 with fb peeps
and a few juniors as well! WOOTS
andee, jessica and peiling
correct?? hahaha

went home with min hui crapping and bullying me all the way in the train

and an uber disgusting thing happ yest
sometimes i really hate yishun for having so many cheekopeks
got bangla follow me home lo!
idiotic SHIT

but nvm, nothing can spoil my mood. =)
im a happy girl.

and online shopping is EVIL
i just bought another TOP!!!
hahahaha
was showing sabby bigi bag website
and she's buying a bag. lol
craziness.
online shopping is the craze craze craze!!! haha
when can i go shopping! i wanna worK!

3:38:00 am
YYYYY

i'm a happy girl
mommy just gave me $200 worth of takashimaya vouchers
=DD
gg to shop shop shop soon
=))) YES AH! hehehehe

niwaes
my eye bags are getting huge
the size of my thumb!
lol
exaggerating
im gg to slp in today
NO MSGS AND PHONE CALLS!!!!!!!!!!
everytime i wanna sleep in someone sure spoils it one =S

wore my new mphosis dress today
classes were a dragggggggggggggggggg
felt sleepy
i was fasting today
hungry
not enough sleep--------i slept at 5am
and just no mood

ate dinner at yishun
we couldn't decide where to eat
and also no space
in the end, went long john
off aaaaaaalllllllllll the places
haiz...

aft tt chilled at starbucks with sara, matt n eoin
realized i was abit quiet
dunno what to say
and was uber tired
bleahx

i need sleep but i know if i sleep now, i cant wake up to eat breakfast later
so better stay awake til 4
then i can SSSSSSSSSLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP!
hahahahaha

1:23:00 am
YYYYY

bleahx
had to change blogskin again
don really like the pictures from this blog
but i like the layout and whatever

azhar showed us this video in class today
about disney monopoly
lol
i think the video just like the movies are trying to brainwash us
i agree with some parts but not all la

today was randall's ica
i think i did badly
=S
during practise i wasnt stammering at all
but up there, i kept stumbling over my words.
shit shit shit

haiz...
niwaes glad its over
took pictures with matt n ila =)
matthew's wwearing leo's vest
matt i think u look nice in a vest

and mr randall goh trying to be funny and acting cute

now have to study which i dunno how to for jessica's ica
damn it
which is this fri
damn it!!

went for dinner with leo, eoin n matt
i realized i didnt eat any solid food and meal since yest
ate only 2 1/2 donuts and fish from my ban mian at vivo yest
the ban mian sucked

today i ate ermm cheese fries from grinning gecko
and half a sandwich from charlene's
bleahx

stomach ache stomach ache!!
i still haven collected my medicine from hospital.
bleahx
lazy
and im getting fatter
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz sadded

and online shopping is EVIL!
and soooooooooooooooo tempting!
i wanna buy jeans jeans jeans!

http://tw.f3.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/c29811666?u=wemilykimo
http://tw.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/1154720158?u=wemilykimo
http://tw.f4.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/d25532429?u=wemilykimo
http://tw.f2.page.bid.yahoo.com/tw/auction/b33649761?u=wemilykimo

nice not???
total up to $70 only can
haiz

i want black, grey and white jeans!
niwaes, i think im fasting tmr
if i can wake up
then i can save money and diet
hehehe
so i hope mommy can wake me up tmr

n MMR book is just in front of me staring blankly AT ME!
hahahaha

i'm a happy girl =)
wish the day didnt have to end

2:43:00 am
YYYYY

retail therapy is the best medicine
=D

went to vivo with ila n charlene today
wasnt suppose to spend money
except at haagen daz
but as soon as we stepped into mphosis,
WAH we spent like 3hrs inside there can
=S

i spent like $48 there!!! OMG
coz ermmm uber cheap can!!
50%-70% discount leh!!
i bought racer back top for $6 only!!! OMGOOOOOOOOOD
i bought sandals $6
one racer back $6
two dresses $36
hahahaha. charlene n ila spent alot alot too
=D
all of us were happy happy happy aft tt
yayness!!! =DD
today's a happy day for me!!! =D

aft tt went to pacific coffee to do randall's ica
lol
didnt go haagen in the end. broke.
damn it
took lotsa pictures. =D

the kitties meet!

i looove the swing! hahahaa

then i bought a watch
bleahx!
hahaha
but its nice =)

aft tt charlene wanted to buy donuts coz she meeting reyn
hahaha
so sweet
but we queued from like 815-9!!!
OMG LA!
soooooooooo looooooooooooooong. =S
my knees were killing me alr.
i bought donuts too
bleahx

now im totally broke
im gg to be fasting tmr
hahahaha
save money
=p

10:55:00 pm
YYYYY

i seriously need to catch up on my sleep man
alot of people have been saying i look shagged, tired, sleepy, etc
damn it
i am staying up late sometimes doing god knows what, waking up early for god knows what
my eye bags are the size of almonds, or worst lo.

went for brunch with my parents and granddad,
daddy bought new hp =S
they sent me to amk to meet gina darling to go for gin's class

in the end, when we reach the platform, farhan called n said class cancelled. -.-
like. huh? soooooo last min
we decided to chill in town anyway
so gina n i went to city hall to walk walk

and an embarrassing thing happ to me at citylink!
i walked into the men's toilet. damn it!
so paiseh can.!!!
haiyoooooo

aft tt went to meet the rest
lesner, farhan, vi, eileen, mikal
at suntec city
walked around somemore
went to tong money into those turn turn machines
hahaha
each of us got ourselves a disney character ring =)
i got stitch! hahahaha

then went to meet sabby and ryu
and went to toys r us
hahaha took lotsa funny pictures n revived our childhood.
hahaha

then we went to play arcade.
the lot of them spent alot on the $1 thingy to win themselves a psp.
hahaha
cheat ppl's money one lo tt one

then we bought lotsa foodies
hahahaha
dragon beard candy, COTTON CANDY!!!!, ting ting tang and mua zhi.
hahahah omg
snacking here n there

ate dinner at thai express.
ate my green curry noodle again
=))
ah ben, trisha and nic joined us
talked cock about mother f**ers
wth
of all........ the things to talk abt

then headed to suntec again to eat haagen daz.
lol
was closing so we wanted to go coffee bean
in the end, we sat at haagen daz
hahaha
spent money again

damn it i spent alot today!!! SHIT SHIT SHIT
haiz....
ah ben drove us home again today. so nice of him
lol
and he's crazy crazy crazy.
lol

i shall upload pictures soon soon soon. =)

3:18:00 am
YYYYY

what am i doing awake at 415? =s
i am going to be soo freaking tired later.
my eye bags are alr the size of baby carrots
what a way too describe them.

am i the bad guy here? why do you make me sound as if i am?don't you know you're not making the situation easier? i made a huge mistake. starting smtg i shouldn't have. how was i to know it will end like this.? if i knew tt, i wouldn't have started it. DAMN IT. someone help me. please tell me im not in the wrong. why do you always make me feel so guilty?

so many things on my mind now. u know that. yet you're making things difficult for me. im going out of my mind. its a nightmare! annd i want to wake up NOW and make it all go away!!1

I AM IN A FREAKING NIGHTMARE!!!!!!!!!!!! pls let this nightmare be over over over!

i do not want to end up hating you but i fear that i will.

4:14:00 am
YYYYY

I AM SHAGGED
woke up late today
was suppose to meet danial to help with his interview at 9am in school.
i woke up at 835. =S

JW ica was today.
wth. so rushed.
handed in my work on time.
dont think i did a perfect job. i would've liked to edit more. =S
siaaaaaaaaaaan

had lunch in sch then went to raffles city with sara, cindy, habez, eoin, matt n leo.
walked from the top level to robinsons.
went off with matt aft tt
go sch for fb.

fb was tiring but fun.
was feeling abit stressed and tired..
aft tt ah ben sent me, vi n mikal back
hahaha crazy guy
race on expressway with viki.
hahaha
he's a "skilled"/reckless driver.
lol.

i want my license too!!
registring in june =)

i dont know what to do already
whatever i do, dont do, im commented on it
it's very difficult for me
it has been and will be even more so difficult for me
thanks sara dear. =)

can't you just leave him?
i cant stand it anymore.
if it wasnt for me, you would have i know
i hate what he does to us. to you.
nothing will change
he still wont be a part of my life

12:13:00 am
YYYYY

i hate seeing my loved ones suffer and get so upset
i hate you for making her suffer so much
i hate you for making her so upset
i hate you for making her cry
i hate you for making her sick

why do you always make her upset?
why do you always make her suffer?

even when she's sick, when she's in the hospital,
you dont even visit her
you dont even care

i admire her strength and resilence
but i for one never want to be in the same situation as her
ever
i love her with all my heart but...

don't ask me why i suddenly feel the need to research on such stuff
but i was looking at the ranking of the top 20 highest rate of divorces in the world.
not surprisingly, Singapore's ranked 18.

i thought marriages were supposed to last forver?
whatever la... no marriage is happily ever after.

10:33:00 pm
YYYYY

i swear sometimes guys are such a-holes

rule no.1
if a girl's outfit is not nice, dont say she looks ugly, fat, whatever
just dont say anything or put words nicer

rule no.2
never say she looks old

rule no.3
never say she looks fat

rule no.4
never say she's stupid or whatever

haiz.... i know its alot
but, i guess girls are sensitive abt one thing or another
girls need to be complimented one way or another
or if u dont compliment, just dont say anything then
we have fragile hearts. lol
i know i know
BS right?

maybe its just me. but if its not one thing a girl is sensitive abt,
its another
guess which one im sensitive abt?

u have to pay attention to this kinda stuff
if u know she's sensitive abt her weight, height, age, tummy, inteligence, etc
dont go and demoralise her further by saying it right in front of her
sometimes its ok to joke but
sometimes u just have to think or just shut up
=))

today, ila n i coincidentally wore our little miss shirts together
=S
so paiseh ppl looking

anyways, zafirah, me n sara also wore our sandals
diff colour but same
hahaha

guess which is me???
the "black" looking nails
red nails is sara[o wanted the gold sandals! but out of stock]
and the black one is zafirah

aft sch went to grassroots to chill
ila, kel, leo n matt went pool-ing
and sara n i stayed outside to chit chat
super tired
hahahaha

YAY!!! GOING GYM N SWIMMING ON WED!!!!!!!
weEEEE!!!!!!
set ok sara n ila??
=))

i dont know when u'll notice me
but all i know is that
no matter what the outcome,
i wish u all the best in finding happines
coz...
i think i may just have fallen for you

11:02:00 pm
YYYYY

I AM HAVING FCUKING DIARRHOEA!!

woke up this aftnn with an uber stomach cramp
aft awhile it went away n i went back to slp
half an hour later i woke up again coz of stomach cramp
thought i was having my period
so i went to toilet

yeah was having it. damn it
ok so i practically crawled out of my bed
literally crawled to my mommy's bedroom toilet
sat on the toilet bowl
and ya u know the rest

aft tt, my stomach felt like hell again
and i kept gg to the toilet
i think since ive been awake, ive been to the toilet for like
8 times!
freak!
what the hell did i eat yest???
=(

stayed in bed
rebooted my comp n my laptop at the same time
watched youtube videos

did i mention yesterday gin's class WAS SUPERBO!
hahaha
she is like a mind reader
or mayhaps she's just been aarnd FB ppl too much
to know all our styles and habits!!
she knows what we'll do and all tt!
woah
her warm ups are killer!

AND I SATISFIED MY CRAVING FOR COTTON CANDY!
WEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!
they were giving cotton candy away free at heeren
hahaha
but abit only
stingy ppl
*pouts*
but now i want more
damn it

and i refuse to believe that was what made me sick
i think the ice kacang or spring rolls or NASI MINYAK!!
damn it all to hell

should i go to sch tmr?
i think i'll be sleeping in mommy's room tonight
closer to the toilet. =)

damn it

12:41:00 am
YYYYY

damn it!

my eye hurts!!

my right eye is now half the size of my left

its pinkish red

and the inner eye feels like got smtg stuck inside and keeps poking my eye

or like some vein sudd burst.

ouch

was a fun fun day today
ok aft sch went to lunch in north canteen

then proceeded to marina square for KBox

there were ermmm 8 of us

me, ila, sara, cindy, habez, eoin, matthew and leonard

Charlene was suppose to join us but she wasnt feeling well

get well soon gal =)

its ok we can go kbox another day ks? =DD

niwaes so we reached at 2pm

had bookings

proceeded with the singing and shouting and what not
hahaha

the best female singer is: SARA

the best male singer is: HABEZ

woooots

hahaha

had lotsa laughters and lotsa peanuts and tidbits

lol

matthew sang this sickening calcutta taxi driver song in those voices -.-

for the first time, heard eoin sing when he sang i dont wanna miss a thing

cindy singing her twin's song cyndi. lol

habez singing malay songs

NOTICE:

during KBOX ONLY will YOU EVER hear me singing MALAY SONGS!!!!!

cam whored alot alot alot

some people also cam whore =S

will not mention who.

had to go off at 5pm for FB

sang a last MALAY SONG [wth]

then went off with eoin
during FB, was first junior's pract today

quite fun. the juniors high high one

gooooooooood

hahaha

played the ABCD dance game.

=))

learnt like a boy.

finally

but i cant catch the steps

DAMN IT

tmr is gin's class

haizz

i hope i won make a fool out of myself. =S

waiting for caning [look at eunice's butt] lol

12:39:00 am
YYYYY

haiz...
looking at all my darling's blogs, i miss gg out with them
sorry i couldnt make it theother day to amk hub
haven been gg out with my classmates fr 2 mths so i thought i'd cath up with them more
=((
i miss my gals...
gina, eileen, sabby, vivi.
i'm sorry haven been hanging out with u gals
haiz...

and i hate my tuesday and thursday night classes
coz another day tt i dont get to dance.
damn it
i havent danced for like 2 weeks???
=((( i think i've deproved again
damn damn damn

i need to start dancing again!!!
haiz...

every week there's presentations
there's tutorials, news stories to do
french is exciting but abit hard to comprehend n remember the vowels n what not
ica must present in french

next week icas start
damn it
im still not feeling the pressure
and i know i havent been paying attention during one or two lectures
damn
ok now typing all this, i feel the pressure
hahahaha

i feel torn in between
studies, friends, family
haiz... sometimes i wanna stay at home with mommy or study but sometimes i wanna spend time with my friends.
and sometimes i know i need to imprve on dance.

thanks reyn for the advice
=)
come what may
and im not kental u ass.

and ila keeps touching me with her cold hands
so freeaaaking cold alr!!
did i mention im in class now?
azhar's journalistic writing class somemore. lol

and matt, cheer up
dont emo
if u wanna emo, call ur emo partner. =))
you're larger then life if u believe in it

11:26:00 am
YYYYY

ok i've decided not to give up
whatever it is,
i'll just let nature run its course
if by some miracle it's meant to be, it will be
if not, i'll just learn from it
=)

12:52:00 am
YYYYY

i suddenly feel very shitty
emo partner where are you?
haiz... dreams were really meant for dreaming
wishes never come true
and miracles happen only once in a million

i think i should just give up
there's no point
and its impossibly hopeless for me to carry on
coz i dont see it gg anywhere

no matter what others may think
i still think in the 18th century
in that a girl does not woo or court the guy she likes

am i wrong in that thinking?
but really, there's so much a girl can do
right?
the feelings inside me feel like bursting out whenever i feel i cant keep it anymore

do you know how i feel?
sometimes i think u do
but sometimes i think u dont but the rest around u can see it
am i that translucent in my feelings?

i know alot of people have been trying to help me
and i really really really do appreciate your help
but im sorry i have to disappoint all of you
i know it seems cowardly of me
but i am a coward
im afraid of getting hurt
im afraid of taking risks

i dont know if i'll be happier
i dont know if i'll get over you
but i dont want to embarrass myself
and i know i will

u know they saying
would you rather be with someone u love
or someone that loves you?
like the coward that i am,
i'd rather be with someone that loves me
provided i can see myself loving the person in the future.

i'm sorry
so sorry
to all those who've cared, helped and been through this with me
to disappoint u all like that

but somehow, i'd still be waiting for you
if ever u have a change of heart [which will be a miracle and u know what they say abt miracles]
i'll be happy
more then happy

shit i hate this
damn it

10:22:00 pm
YYYYY

lol
super long never blog.
now in jessica's lesson
night class
sian....

had work at expo last sunday
during mother's day
for smoe international lion's rally
at first we were shocked coz didnt know
that we had to wear white long sleeve shirt
so we thought we had to go back

the uniform was fugly. sorry
thank god holiday inn's not this colour
it looked horrible on me
and i look like some kung fu master =p

oops forgot to say who's the we
me n my gals gina, sabby n vivian
plus vivian's cousin and the staff of crown prince.

there were alot of ppl there
but still we short of staff.
3 person to 5 tables.

saw some cuties. =p
cant resist. lol
ok had lotsa fun
even though had to stand for 10 FREAKING HOURS!!!!
my feet was killing me at the end of the day

finally, it was over and we got our money!!!
vi n me rusheed to eat BK at changi airport.
lol
ate our meal in silence coz we were starving
ahahahha
took 858 back to yishun
so tiring!!!

ok lesson ended.
damn early
suppose to be at 9pm
hahah but good
=p

looking forward to working again!!
=D

im trying to resist
trying my hardest not to let it be
wishing
but i hope for the best
even though i know you're out of reach

8:24:00 pm
YYYYY

ooo its 250am!
hahaha

finally finished getting the picts from vivian
=P
cam whored super super duper duper alot today
total pictures taken=295!!!
my camera+vivian+eileen's

went to my checkup at sgh
mommy sent me there
feel bad coz aft tt she nvr go work
so sweet

aft appt, went to eat at yishun foodcourt.
talked to mommy about alot of things in my life =)
super long never talk to her until like tt alr.
and im glad she listens =)
im so lucky

aft lunch, went to meet vi n eileen then headed down to vivo city
from the moment we were in the train at NEL, we started snapping away.
lol

went to harbourfront centre to eat subway
then went to vivo

first went to candy empire
wanted to get for mommy her fav daim chocolate
but dunno why sudd don have
aft tt,
went to the rooftop there and cam whored super duper alot
hahahaha

went daiso to buy some stuff

spent like close to 2 hrs inside there
coz camwhore alot there too. lol.

meet sabby n nic aft tt
went to cocoa tree to get mommy's daim
saw wei lun and the 5 of us walked to build a bear
the clothes, shoes, EVERYTHING THERE
is SOOOOOOOOOOO CUUTTTTTTTEEEEEEE
i want my very own build a bear too!
hahaha
i want one from my someone special
*winks*
lol
stop dreaming iffah.

ok aft gushing over the stuff there,
went to take more picts
aft tt headed to zara, mphosis, topshop, pull n bear n mango
didnt buy anything
coz i no money. sadded
but saw this super super duper nice dress from zara
tried it on
NICE NICE! but ex.
$59.90!!! WALAO EY.

hahaha
aft window shopping til our legs hurt,
went to rooftop again
sabby n nic went back
took more gazillion pictures there.
hahahaa
super super funny
there were heads knocked,
camera on timer so all of us gancheong.
lol

weilun bcame our cameraman for the day
hahaha
super noisy cameraman.
ok so bad.
coz he bought drinks n fruit for us =p

went back aft tt

and i super forgot about PMM!!!
arrrggghhh
now researching for it. oopsie!
there's french later!!!
and i start sch at 1pm. siiiiiiiiaaaaaaannnnnnnn

absence makes the heart grow fonder
im happy =)

2:49:00 am
YYYYY

Finally i watched spideyman!!
lol
aft sch just now went to meet vi n gina to watch spiderman 3!
at bishan. lol
skipped my media buying
shit.
first 2 lessons both also i skipped
damn it
finally saw my ah-cute in sch today aft like
1 week?

ok so the movie was not bad
i'd give it 3/5 stars
=)
waiting for PIRATES OF THE CARI!!
and HARRY POTTER!!!!

and coincidentally today,
me, vi n gina all 3 wearing stripes.
lol
REALLY COINCIDENTAL!!!

vi saw her ah-cute today at j8.
lol. cant stop smiling ah she
hahahaha
and i couldnt stop smiling too
gina n vi knows why. =)

aft the movie
went to meet matt, eoin n twinny at some playground
dunno what they doing there also
-.-
chilled there n talked cock til 11

12:16:00 am
YYYYY

found a new cam whoring place.

lol

no la

went to meritus mandarin hotel today for banquet training

vi, regina n vanessa[vi's sis] went together

gina's friend worked there so we had lobang

lol

it went rather well

quite interesting

hehehe

the asst. manager henry was quite friendly

except for the super heavy large tray which we must practise carrying,

it looks quite fun. hehehe

must learn how to de-bone fish now

shall ask mommy to steam fish on wed. lol

went to cineleisure aft tt

bought a shirt at those small small shops

the gals bought something else too

went to hula & co. and saw 2 super super MUST HAVE DRESSES

but i must contain my urge and didnt buy them

haiz.... =(

when will my time to shop without worrying come?

=((

should hook myself a rich boyfriend who's willing to spend on me

or 2, strike lottery,

or 3, save money which i really cant!

or 4, work which i already will be soon

or 5, not buy anyting at all =(((

went to heeren aft tt

saw eileen's ah cute the guy tt came for audition n jam n hop

jung wen lookalike

and sharon's ah cute who works at heeren.

i realized alot of ppl from nyp work at town

lemme name some

sara, ila, tt guy from heeren, evon, kairena, soon me, regina n vi

those are only a few

got more

aft tt vi n her sis went home n me n gina went to tangs

she bought her nike sling back

nice nice

beige n pink. =)

tmr sch starts

haiz. i hope i do well this sem

looks and sounds hard.

haiz...

i dont know what else to do already

seems like whatever i do,

it doesnt seem to have any effect

or maybe its too soon to tell

and there's so much i can do

but i grow weary and impatient

still, everytime im there,

im happy

haiz...

10:02:00 pm
YYYYY

been a looooooooooong week.
haiz...
but the week ended on a rather sad note.

yesterday was eoin's bday
went with matt to buy cake at amk hub.
lesson was 10-12 only.
aft tt surprised or dunno whether he guessed it
with his bday cake.

then, leo, ila n matt wanted to surprise him with cake on his face
but they were so slow n super obvious tt he guessed it n took ff his specs
lol

budden ended up we didnt coz he knew already
but then ended up...

still get cake shoved in his face
poor thing
lol

went to cab to amk hub for lunch
coz iqah cant possibly walk there with her crutches
hehehe 3 cabs
wooo

aft eating, went to centrepoint coz sara wanted to get smtg from gap
there were hmm 10?
me, ila, char, sara, cindy, habez, twinny, matt, kel n eoin.
got lost trying to find centrepoint's new wing
so confusing
aft tt slacked at tcc
i drank oreo mocha frappe
lol
aft tt my sore throat got worst damn it

the chair was so comfy la
haha
everyone had smtg diff to drink
except me and cindy's oreo mocha frappe, eoin n kel's caramel hazelnut frappe.

took lotsa picts
my twinny n matt acting gay. =S and the real couple habez n cindy

aft tt, i had to leave for sch coz of fb's 3rd audition
so little ppl!
11 gals and 11 guys. lol
aft auditions stayed to talk abt the pending list.
haiz... so many different opinions

in the end, solved by a solution brought up by jing wen g.g.g senior.
wasnt happy with some people
but what to do.
haiz...
but i guess infront of some ppl, you're sometimes afraid to voice out your opinions
or afraid to say your true feelings.
whatever, see how things go from here.
reached home at like 12mn.

eileen dear, cheer up ks.
we'll be here for you as long as you need us. =)
stay strong. miss your smiles n laughter gal.

2:41:00 pm
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