mommy didnt scold
just asked where her DAIM is
i said i never go buy
hehehe
coz i really didnt see it mah
hahaha
went to celebrate eileen's bday today
even though her bday over
but still, went to celebrate it.
suppose to meet the guys at 4 but ermmm
due to unforseen circumstances, we gals reached at 5
OOPS!
and for the first time, i saw Ah-Peng arrive before me!
lol
went to lime magazine's flea market beside cine
bought a butterfly necklace tt ive been eye-ing
$10! heheh cheap.
day was filled with surprises
eileen's bday gift from lesner was given in surprise
lol
the shop keeper gave her the gift and said someone ordered it for her
WWAAAHH!! SO SWEET
lol
went to eat at thai express @ paragon
everyone's food was delicious
first time i saw tom yam not reddish or orange-y but whitish
lol
i ate seafood laksa with green curry
OOO SUPER DUPER YUMMY!!!!!!
*slurp slurp*
then went to shop at wisma's topshop
i finally bought my purple tube dress! hehehe
eileen bought a top too blue and white. nice nice!
then went over to cine again to chill and have desert
everyone ordered different things
i think overall nicest was lesner's applicious.
lol. ice cream with warm yummy waffle and green apples.
sat there and talked and chill til like 1130.
the guys all trying to guess who i like
vi n eileen there just keep quiet only. lol
came up with diff names
in the train otw home, still guessing
hahaha
now you all know
but.
well.
things arent what they appear to be.
looks arent everything
and plus, im feeling confused.
haiz... will see how when sch starts.
1:04:00 am
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just because
Were you a planned baby? yup after 4 yrs of trying so i heard. =S
Were you the first? first, middle, last. =((
Who was present at your birth? my mother, the doctor, the nurse. i dunno who else
Were your parents married when you were born? i should hope so!!!!!! yes la duh!
What is your birth date? 26 march 1989. over alr. haiz...
Part 2: The Family
An only child? why am i repeating myself? yes.
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? for the 3rd time, no siblings. NEXT!
What are your sibling's names? Oh my tian.
Which parent do you get along with best? 100% my mommy
What do you fight about with your parents? staying over for chalets. lol
Part 3: The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend? no. but sadly, im losing contact with my bestie. =( fad!
What do you like to do when you are together? talk, shop
Do you share the same interests? yes! music, shopping!
Which friend can you tell everything to? hmmm i dont tell everything to my friends. some ppl this, some that.
How high/low is your self esteem? currently, it is super low.
Do you get depressed about things easily? only when there're too many problems in my mind
Do you consider yourself an extrovert (outgoing) oran introvert(reserved?) more extrovert i think
Are you happy? currently, not so.
Do you live life to the fullest? lol. i try my best to
Part 5: Appearance
Are you comfortable with the way you look? not completely
Describe your hair? between shoulder and waist, brown, straight
How do you dress? ermm sometimes hiphop sometimes normal?
Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child? i really wouldn't know. as a girl, i try my mom's shoes, makeup, play cooking, play teacher,is tt normal???
Do you have the same friends? some from pri sch. yeah
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing? i think i'd like to keep tt to myself
Are you scared of growing old? sometimes
Do you want to get married? yes please. preferably to someone i actually love
Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? depends on when, with who and doing what
Favorite Season? Spring and winter
Do you like walking in the rain? yes even though i'll get sick
Part 9: Food
Are you a vegetarian? no
What is your favorite food? too many. pizza, mac n cheese, kimchi, tom yam noodle soup, hor fun, etc
What is your favorite dessert? b&j ICE CREAMS! red ruby, ice kachang, and swensen's chocolate malt balls ice cream!
Fav. restaurant? dunno leh
Part 10: Relationships and Love
When you are in a relationship who will be the luckyguy/girl?: how i know? most probably someone who likes me as much as i like him?
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world? i guess so. but it still hurts.
Do you believe in love at first sight? No.
1:19:00 am
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just came back frm NYP 15th aniversary musical
super duper nice! hehehe
before gg to sch, went to amk hub with vi n sabby
they went to shop and buy tops hahaha
nice nice tops.
went to eat at sticky rice and the green curry noddle is superbo
and so is the tom yam noodles! YUMMY!!!!!!!
then accompanied vi to buy shoes while sabby went for lunch with nic n his parents
lol
it has been a super long time since i wore like this
i wanna shop
all the shoes are super nice n affordable
but not to me coz currently im broke.
sadded
cabbed back to sch and went to clubroom to find the peeps
went through the aution pending lists and saw funny reasons abt why ppl join fb.
hehehehe
cam whored in the clubroom
this is me and ARJUNA
Below is an artistic shot of me and evelyn!!! =D
aft tt watched the musical at auditorium
super nice
GO FB!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YA!
aft musical, while waiting for god knows what,
lesner, ryu n eunice played soccer and catch with vi's new shoes.
lol so funny to watch.
day ended reasonably early. lol
went back aft musical.
sometimes i wonder why we need to put up a facade in front of certain ppl
are we really who we are in front of certain ppl?
are those around us really showing us their true feelings or is it hidden behind a mask?
it's tiring trying to be someone you're not
people should love you for who you are right?
why isit you sometimes feel lost in a crowd?
been hurt too many times to count
someone asked how i've changed and why
i replied with a simple just being more cautious
because you really dont know who you can trust
and you've been hurt too many times to allow yourself to truly open up
and trust anyone
i wanna shop
i wanna buy
-tops
-heels
-zen vision m/w 30gb
-driver's license. =D
haiz.... i wish i had $1000 now. then can buy everything i need now
n don shop for the rest of 2-3 mths!
i know i can!
lol
haiz...
i need to improve my dance
but where do i start?
someone pls tell me!
am i really that unlikable?
if so, pls tell me why
if not, then im happy
that in your eyes, im good enough
do you really like me?
pls tag if you do or dont
then i know who you are and try to avoid you
sorry.
i seriously need a morale boost.lol
or maybe im just not good enough for you
11:08:00 pm
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HAPPY BELATED BDAY TO JO!!!!!!
lol
actually just now just celebrated jo's bday aft auditions
pheww!
first day of auditions are over
im having a headache now!
=S
went ok i guess
alot of ppl!
some were talented, some weren't
some were plain showing off, some were humble
lol
met very interesting ppl about.
hahaha
got sadako.
got pretty girls and cute guys. lol
cant wait for tmr!
but i think my free styling skills SUCK!
regina you rock my socks!!!!
lol
haiz... she's improved alot
and i suck at it
=(((
hmmm recently been having weird feelings
vi says its normal
i also think so
it's normal
i hope it'll pass soon
if not,
im dead
12:19:00 am
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haiz
cant sleep
tried reading 2 novels
still awake
currently chattin with matthew and ila
hahaha
i wanna shop
but first i need to work
or strike lottery
hahahha
then i can shop shop shop!!!!!!!!
WWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
haiz....
i wanna experience that feeling again
when will i get to feel it again?
*envy*
got this off cherylene's blog.
i think its true
of course these actions should be done from the heart n honestly
Every girl dreams that one day she will find a boy that does these things for her.
Even the smallest action can have the BIGGEST impact in someone's life.
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in. :)
• leave her cute text notes. :)
• kiss her in front of your friends. :)
• tell her she looks beautiful. :)
• look into her eyes when you talk to her. :)
• let her mess with your hair. :)
• touch her hair. :)
• just walk around with her. :)
• forgive her for her mistakes. :)
• look at her like she's the only girl you see. :)
• tickle her even when she says stop. :)
• hold her hand when you're around your friends. :)
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms. :)
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• tease her and let her tease you back. :)
• stay up all night with her when she's sick. :)
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead. :)
• give her the world.
• write her letters.
• let her wear your clothes. :)
• when she's sad, hang out with her. :)
• let her know she's important. :)
• let her take all the photos she wants of you. :)
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her. :)
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before. :)
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i think humans are never satisfied with the way they look
i wish my face was less round
i wish i was thinner
i wish ......
wish wish wish
haiz.............
sometimes i think my life is a drama
then again, i think it'll be a very boring drama
nothing exciting has been happening
went for dance just now
pract for dance auditions
2:38:00 am
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super disgusting
one was abt japanese ppl skinning half of the fish alive for sashimi!
OMFG can you imagine how painful it must be for the poor fish!!!
it still must suffer and swim in the stupid prison and wait for the stupid cook
to skin the other half of his body.
if me, i would rather die.!.!
another one, i got watch before la
but still equally if not MORE disgusting
abt china ppl
who capture cats and dogs, throw them in cramped cages
then throw the cages around until their legs break
then kill them and remove their skin for FUR
FOR FREAKING FUR!!!!!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK
but seriously, DISGUSTING
i imagine my 3 cats here and im grateful that they have me
coz i won do that
I HATE HATE HATE FUCKING ANIMAL ABUSERS
SORRY FOR THE MANY F LETTER WORDS BUT
REALLY!!!!!
OMG LA!!!!!!!
from those who burn innocent caterpillars to watch them suffer
to those who drink soup from live monkey brains or whatever
to those who kill animals like those in the videos
i hate them
hate them
how can anyone be so cruel to animals
and im still sick
haiz......
change of topic la
make my blood boil only
went to town with vi, sabby n nic just now
sabby bought top from topshop
i wanna shop
but got no money now
must work work work!!!!!!
NEED MONEY!!!!!!!!!
see sabby n nic
so sweet together
when will i experience that?
lol
ok whatever
recently been feeling some weird stuff
hahaha
dunno la
maybe coz of recent events
mommy pushed forward my appt to dr mesanus to next wed
when sch has started
lucky i no classes tt day
still feeling shitty that i have two night classes
tues n thurs
and ONLY 1 DAY OFF!!!!! WED!
when 02 has 2!!!!!!!!! wed n fri!!!!!! ARRGGGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!
and my french lessons arent with my gals charlene n ila!!!!!!!!! =(((((
12:29:00 am
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YES!!!!!!!!
*PEW*
and this sickening guy was like giving a blow job during the light stick to one of his friend contestant
1:33:00 pm
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AND IM SHAGGED
hey tt rhymes! sort of
today was first day of CLUB CRAWL!
wooo!!!!! super high today hahaha
we beat seniors record.
today was like alr 300+ ppl. =D
excited!!!!!
performance was not bad.
i think i did good.
my last night was the best that ive done so far.
WEEETTT!!! farhan and i rock
lol
kidding
reggae was synchro ansd sexy and girls hip hop was energizing.
though not so synchro coz got a few mistakes made by ppl here n there. lol
lol
but i was super super duperly TIRED!!!!!!
skipped lunch and my stomach pain like hell
was damn cranky coz i was super tired and hungry.
sorry those i show black face to.
took damn damn alot of pictures.
coz i was too lazy to take out my camera.
hehehehe
tmr then i use my cam la. lol
tmr another day
this time, LONGER!!!!!!!
GOT JAM N HOP!!!!!!!! OMTian!
lmao
yest, we set up booth at sports hall
was ssuper high also and super happy yest. [coz of you] =)
then got someone super bossy
only know how to give orders. =S
the day before yest,
was full dress rehearsal.
everyone was excited and nervous
and of all the days,
i chose that day and that full dress rehearsal to trip during last night.
even though farhan was there to catch me. damn paiseh
before tt went to amk central to go buy reggae costume with vi
at first thought of buying from U2
but too ex
so we went to hang ten[even though quality damn lousy]
to buy shirts
super craziness
bought 3 bowls of cup noodle for lunch and dinner.
gave one to regina though
lol
then vi bought chocolates and donut for denglin
and i bought some snacks coz i was hungry. hehehe
8:01:00 pm
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU GAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FB peeps surprised her during full run just now with a birthday cake.
mango. DAMN DAMN NICE!!!!!!!!
today friday the 13th so suey for some people.
but our SHS performance was the BEST of all our performances
even better then ISC. to me
today gt our FB t-shirt.
the person that print the thing damn stupid and F**king lazy!!!
for S and M the print still ok.
but for L onwards the shirt so big but the Foreign Bodies print not proportionate!
then SUPER SMALL on them
ok no SUPER but
UNPROPORTIONATE LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the guys are damn angry and disappointed
but what to do
then somemore his fault he dont let us change WTF.
SUE!!!!!!!!!
lmao
club crawl in a few days only. 5 days.
haiz... worried.
excited.
everything la.
=)
currently chionging
everyday now got pract
including sunday
haiz
OH YES!
congrats to Huang Peng, Sabrina and Eunice!!!!!!
our President and vice presidents respectively for our batch!
11:19:00 pm
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yay!!!!
congrats to c-force on getting most energetic and 3rd runner-up
very proud of all of you.
=D
before meeting fb peeps at clementi,
me, vi n regina went amk to do hair
lol
saw yusmar and his sis otw to amk
super long never see him alr
still as cute as ever =D hor?
went to rebond my hair.
vi went to cut hair
regina brought us there
coz she go rebond there a few days ago.
YAY!
i love my hair
but vi and regina kept laughing at me
while my hair was being re-bonded. -.-
only those 2 and those who saw the pict knows why.
idiotic. =S
but fun hehehehe
went to NUS aft tt for the danceworks comp
I SAW MY CUTE GUY
FINALLY
lol
he's in the comp la!
but category 2. -.-
younger then me by like 2-3 yrs. diao.
but super cute
but sudd notice he like to show off alot.
the category 2, which is secondary sch cat.
wah! super cool and nice la.
haiz.. i couldnt dance like tt in sec sch. =S
top 2 position went to jinyuan or whatever the name sec sch.
the cute guy from tt sch. they won 1st. freakin nutz
2nd place funky nutz. lol
for our category 3, 1st place PURIFY
2nd.... ----------------- jang jang jang..... wouldnt believe it.
ermmm i even forgot their name... er wait ah....
ZESTURE!!!!!!!!!
ok 3rd place is TP. hahahaha
walao eh!
wth. zesture???? haiz. ok shant say
took alot of picts today. heheh
actually not me also
the silly ah ben.
take my camera and take random shots everywhere
keep saying 1,2,3 then sooooooo many his face.
waste space.
aft comp, went to eat at clementi
YEST!!! [ok now its 1230am so its 2 days ago]
went for synchro at SMU
then went to watch STOMP THE FLOOR
coz def crunk and street souls competing
got strong teams. and super, super-dunno-how-to-dance-sell-sex-appeal team
lmao
saw the guy eileen was hot for.
she straight away keep screaming and "melt"
lmao
found out his name too. ez. aiya dunno how to spell but yeah around there
eileen went crazy. lol
went to eat at kobayashi aft tt
took train back with regina n vi
12:23:00 am
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haiz..
went for dinner with mommy first then she sent me to school
didnt have the mood to dance
dont have the mood to do anything nowadays
sorry farhan, im not a very good dance partner am i?
keep kicking you just now.
was nervous and kept getting my turns wrong.
haiz.........
i think im depressed
even my laughter seems forced.
sorry to those ive offfended
but i dunno why i cant bring myself to laugh at jokes and amusing stuff nowadays.
i think im too paranoid
i keep feeling that some people are against me somehow
dunno
maybe its just me. =S
11:39:00 pm
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haiz..
everyone else's lives seem to be going well but mine
why???
my twinny is trying to give me some advice
but i dont think im up to following it
coz i just dont feel like putting anymore effort into anything
yes
i am that drained,
that tired.
i just need one thing to go right in my life
i dont care what
just one, then i'll be right on track again.
heck, maybe more than one.
i need a long break from this exhausting running
lately, my mind, my body, keeps running and running non stop except for when im sleeping
haiz... dunno if anyone understands what im saying
i need a long break, a long rest to recover form my hectic life.
no wonder all those rich folks have houses in the suburban areas.
where there's more peace
sometimes i wish i was a filthy rich daughter.
then i can just fly myself in a private jet to some island, book a room
and just laze around. even if its for the weekend.
or just spend money aimlessly to pamper myself.
twinny is telling me about the movie hitch
haiz.. life's not like the movies twinny.
its not reality even though we wish it was so.
twinny's telling me its not reality but the lessons in it are true.
=S whatever that means la. haiz...
if everyone's lives were as simple as a movie,
wouldn't it be much more simpler?
wtf am i talking abt?
1:01:00 am
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seems like alot of people aren't serious abt club crawl at all
today, went to sch at 7pm for reggae
but
no one from reggae except vi and ida, who has c-force pract was there.
omfh la.
ok partly my fault coz forgot to tell them yest
because again, super pissed off, all last min tell cannot make it
then only me, sharon, vi and su
so might as well cancel coz cannot do anything.
bad enough already damn pek cek already
dont know how to take initiative and ASK isit???
must everytime wait for msg.
and hello??? now practise is like everyday already!
club crawl less is like less than 2 weeks away coz minus off sundays, performance days.
and we sstill haven synchro, haven do formation, and confirm people forget steps here and there
and some dont even know steps yet.
like, i dont see any effort being put in at all.
people got chalet la what la.
irritaing.
i had chalet i also went for pract first before leaving what.
MONDAY IS SHOWCASE ALREADY!
confirm get scolding by seniors coz not prepared.
haiz...
if you cant commit in the first place, DONT JOIN!
haiz... was super pissed off just now.
imagine, everyday you have to msg 8 ppl a 2sms long msg to tell them abt pract, dont be late, commitment shit.
so total 16msgs!!!!
cant expect to everytime msg
i have othe priorities also besides reggae please!
cannot take initiative meh!!!!!!!????????? walao!!!!!!!!!
and since when we didnt have any practices before besides coz of HPB???
haiz... disappointed. damn disappointed.
fyp, danceworks finals, attachment, no choice.
work which can choose schedule i dont see why cannot change schedule and all this.
if some of the grp members can put in the effort to manage work and dance,
i dont see why the rest cant.
if you read this and feel upset, i dont care.
im upset too!!!
dont want to scold so much coz i dont have the right to
but. really, getting out of hand. haiz...
no mood to dance reggae..
this is why i say dancing now doesnt make me happy already.
im envious of those who have their loved ones by their side
tomorrow is my only day off from dance
no reggae and girl's hiphop
no point coz some people wont be there
want everyone to be there for synchro n formation
coz if not damn mafan.
haiz... aft dance,
went to pasar malam with min hui
went to sit n chat awhile.
i wanna work!!
i need money!!!!!!!!!
vi, pls help me with your holiday banquet lobang! =D
11:36:00 pm
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hoping and
thinking and
praying
planning and
dreaming.
lol
so suitable to my thoughts now.
coz lately, i havent been feeling very happy these past few days
haven laughed alot since i cant remember when
laughed abit here and there
but haven been actually laughing
self pitying myself =S
yucks!
my mood been down lately.
nothing i do seems to make it go away.
-dancing... still there
-bowling.. still there
-at home... still there
-reading... still there
-watching videos... still there
just came back from OCC[orchid country club]
went bowling with mommy and cousins
been awhile since i bowled with them.
kak sara and abg faizal just bought a new phone N73. red colour
SUPER NICE but, im not a nokia gal.
those two ah, forever must have the same phone one. lol
so mushy.
k not my good day to bowl. improved every game but started with 50points first game
damn sucky ok...
last game was 119. not bad la. played 3 games in total.
aft tt went walk walk and shopped at the pasar malam with mommy
satisfied my cravings for durian again. hehehehehe
mommy told me alot of sad things while we were walking
so i almost cried.
hehehe
lost so many dear ones these past few weeks.
dont want to lose anymore.
haiz... makes me thing to myself
when will the perfect opportunity come?
when will it be right to express myself?
a friend gave me some "given" advice:
since the person u liked is an open person..and that u're closed to him..
and u noe that it can nvr happen btwn the two..
jus be as open as u can wif him while u still hev the chance to b cos u noe he'll be treating u the same way too..
she told me that u will tend to find happiness somehow frm this cos u r wif him n u can nvr be any happier wenever u're around him..
she told me to treasure this moment n jus b ur usual self as long as u can wen u're wif him..
haiz....
i wish you'd give me a sign somehow to show how you really feel.
there's always hints here and there but never a full meaning.
so im left guessing and assuming
which i hate. because it makes me feel insecure.
10:36:00 pm
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i think ive used up my $300 birthday money!
shit!
on tuesday, which was freaking long ago, 27 march,
went shopping before gg for reggae class
went to 3 places before i finally decided on a bag tt i wanted.
which was $100. but worth it! i love it.
even though some ppl might say big, i say NICE! hehehehe
went to taka first, then to heeren, then to cine.
bought my bestie's bday present also coz i dont think id have time to go and buy it
then spent like $13 on food. =S
ate at bk which was like $7+
not alot also, onion rings, chocolate cake and coke light.
then bought this japanese desert from m.o.f.
super syiok and delicious but $6!
then paid for reggae class $20.
TODAY, no YESTERDAY. 310307
went for pract at SMU
ended early so went shopping with sharon at raffles link
in the end, is i go shopping.
went into GUESS
saw a super duper nice wallet and decided to buy it
but there was only the display piece left so sharon and i SUPER DUPER RUSHED
to suntec GUESS to buy the wallet.
walao tt girl can fly man
ppl say i walk fast but compared to her i think im a tortoise.
lmao
went to suntec n walked back to city hall mrt in like 20mins. wth.
lmao
but i dont regret whatever i've bought.
went to c.a.n cafe at bugis aft tt to chill with eileen, sabby, farhan, big jon, lesner, ryu n gf n david.
went home early then
12:41:00 am
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