sugar, spice, and everything nice ♡

first of,
congratulations to my gal sabrina and nick!
hahahaha
after so long she got the man of her dreams.
lol
they look so so cute together la.
hahahahaha

ok so finance paper was jsut now
i think it was way easier then psm
coz psm i never memorize much
then during paper my mind ket gg blank
irritating
but i lost like 12 marks for finance le
coz calculation the performance report i dunno how to do
sian

last paper on thurs
Principles of media management
haiz... hope i do well
failed my ICA1
damn it! dunno how much i need to pass the module lor
SHIT
haiz....

i cant STUDY AT HOME!!!
see, im blogging
yesterday, i was finding for video converting programmes
need to convert my rmvb dramas to avi mpeg.
sian all i try one all cannot convert my magicians of love
WHY??????????
anyone know of any good ones???
think must go and buy le
haiz.. spend money again.
bleahx!

at home, computer, tv, bed all calling to me
slept at 3am
then woke up at 4am to study finance
yay! what i studied ALL came out!
PMM, scary. haiz... dunno today i'll study or not lor...

7:44:00 pm
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had jwreck pract just now first time went to RP to dance.

lol

the whole school had full length windows

even the gym and the dance studio.

so paiseh everyone in the gym can see lor.

but got full length mirror

and we really needed to syncro using mirrors

in the end, fruitful.

we were quite syncro by the end of the day. =)

and jwreck went to watch sunset together!

awwwwww so romantic

take a look

11:14:00 pm
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me, my family.

im tired, my stomach's in pain and my heart is beating so fast that i fear it would gve me a heart attack!!!

went to hospital again just now for my surgery.

well, it wasn't a major surgery.

had to fast from 12mn til its done

reached early at about 9+

then waited for awhile

could only go in the operating theatre at like 1015.
i couldn't take a picture of my patient band even if i wanted to coz my phone wasnt with me

lol

the nurse sprayed some icky bitter stuff into my mouth to numb it

then injected me with that anesthetic ermm sedation stuff to put me to sleep

haha so pain but aft tt already i cannot remember coz didnt realze that i dozed off.

aft i woke up, it was over! wah! hahaha

then the nurse came and got me off the bed to drink and eat something

milo and biscuit. =S

i was still dizzy and swaying when i walked la. hahaha

couldnt think and see clearly.

then super embarrassing thing happ

like i said, the anesthesia haven't worn off so still abit dizzy

then i think i fell asleep or something

the milo in my hand spilled over my robe

hahahhaa walao ey! embarrassing.

then i like just sit there and never do anything like tt

in a daze. cannot make myself think and move

then this grl another patient sudd got tissues for me

i look at her blur blur and thank you

then i wipe wipe.

aft tt called the nurse and told her

she was like, "oh it's ok come i'll bring you to the toilet to wash off. you're still dizzy ah?"

then i "mmm" only

walao. i walk already like some drunken person.

hahaha.

then sat down back.

the nurse called my mother to come in finally.

hahaha

she say i was inside for so long.

her's wasn't that long.

my mommy had undergone the same thing as me too.

haha.

like mother like daughter.

oh well.

since it wasn't a major surgery, nurse said i could be discharged

but must rest at home.

but i wanted to go study

so after eating at the kopitiam at the hospital,

mommy sent me to sch b4 she went to work.

studied at the library with shaf and sabrina til 530
then went for dance.

but couldnt dance coz not allowed to exercise

so i just watch them dance

then i cannot tahan already my body

so i asked mommy to fetch me

stomach still pain.

pain, pain, go away

dont come again another day

i want to dance and play

pain pain go away.

haiz.. still must go see dr nxt wk.
til then.

thank you charlene, shafina, sabrina, wei keat and the rest for caring. =)

hmmm blogging helps to cool my heart.

now it isn't so hot and frustrated already. good.

so pissed ok just now.

IRRITATING!!!!!!! AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRGGGGGHH!!!!

well, life is too short to stay mad at anyone.

sometimes, you just have to forgive and forget.

sometimes, you just want to have a fresh start
but it's not easy having a fresh start while forgetting the past

and it takes someone with a big heart to forgive easily
but some people have difficulty doing that

me? i'm just going to blog abt my day whenever im angry

so i'll cool my heart

no more getting stressed

no more crying[hahahaha as if]

no more stuffing myself with food.

i cant concentrate on studies when im home

i'll feel sleepy

tempted to blog

tempted to chat

tempted to turn on the tv.

tempted to read etc.

10:36:00 pm
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bleahx my throat feels like it has a big rock stuck inside.
it's so hard and painful to swallow
thanks to all the mandarin oranges, chocolates and love letters i ate.
LMAO

had my gastro appt at GH just now.
had to deal with the morning jam at SLE.
every car practically stopped coz of the speed camera ahead.
seriously, after passing the camera, there was no jam at all. smooth traffic

waited for like 30 mins before the doc called.
then had to go take blood test.
freaking hell. haha
last time i took it was like in p4 when i had dengue. =S

have to go back again for another appt tmr. =S

i want to cherish all the time i have
coz you never know whether you'll wake up one day

where are you?

11:30:00 am
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just came back
had dance pract just now.
went to amk central to buy costume for danceworks
the white jacket which we've been looking all over for.
who would've thought,
a jacket out of all our outfits, which should've cost the most,
cost the least. guess how much?
...................................
$7!!!
even cheaper then the tank top!

after dance, went to watch ghost rider with wei keat, evelyn and lesner.
lol damn damn sudden la the plan.
all of us planning to go home at 8
then sudd i said to shaf,
"let's watch movie during the holidays."
suddenly wei keat and lesner,
abo lets go watch movie now.
lol. walao

so we went to watch NIGHT RIDER at yishun
a recommended movie.
funny, thrilling and damn sweet too.
lol.
young nicholas cage is damn damn cute.
lol.

haiz. wo hen fei leh.
i need to jian fei le.
but my mouth is always itchy.
=(
thought of gg jogging tmr but, i think i wont be waking up so early ba.

haiz.. i feel like such a bad daughter.
never help my mom to bake cookies for her friends.
she keep on asking me
but i keep waking up late, going for dance, in my room like now
and i never help her.
now my mommy sleeping coz she tired.
haiz.. i feel so guilty. =(
tmr if she still baking i will surely help her!

hahaha. cheap hor?

11:44:00 pm
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yesterday was valentines' day.
happy v-day.
uneventful.
not much things happen.

woke up, talk talk on the phone with ms. charlene.
went to meet him. =p
change of plans though
so only met awhile.

look at what he gave!

the cats on the box and chocolate wrappers DAMN cute la.
hehehe.
thank you.
sorry didnt get you anything. =p

mommy brought the router home yesterday.
so spent like. erm... 3 freakin hours trying to set up the thing?
in the end i did it!
YES!
thank you azhar for helping me with it! =D

today had dance pract at 2
in the end, started only after the club crawl meeting which was at 6 -_-
had grp discussion again.
haiz... j-wreck is now left with. 11 members.

i hope our progress will be faster and not full of arguments
coz i really really want us to do well. =D
jia you j-wreck! 25 more days!!!!!!!
OMFG! soooo SHORT!

might be going RP to dance next week coz got aircon
then no distractions
then got full length mirror
then no exams there so wont be disturbing anyone
and also will hv place to dance.
and got aircon! =p
lol.
either there or SMU lor.
hehehe.

i realize i eat whenever im feeling stressed.
i put on 5kg in just 1 year!
i want to lose it back.
haiz.. didnt sleep at all last night
dont know why.
wasnt studying. but.
just couldn't sleep.

hopefully tonight can sleep

walao... i hate it when people promise me they'll keep my secret
then in the end, behind my back, they break their promise
then still got the face to say they didnt tell anyone.
fuck.
why is my trust in people so misplaced???
i should be more cautious
so i dont trust so easily now
haiz...

10:47:00 pm
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i dont care!
i need to blog now!
coz i feel so fuckingly irritated and angry.

dont need the details.
just need to vent my anger on smtg!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
damn damn damn damn PISSSSSED OFF!!!!!!!!!!

wth. not even an hour into the day i get pissed off already
THANKS!!!
THANK YOU sooo much for ruining the day.

feel soo angry and pissed that i just feel like crying.
IN FRUSTRATION! not sadness!

luckily i have such gd friends like charlene and my twinny
to help me calm down and cheer me up.
thank you guys...

walao. i hate being stressed
being stressed means eating
eating means puttin on weight
putting on weight means dieting to loose it
dieting means ok. i dont know but. yeah.

k mommy so nice
pushed up my gastro appt to next wed.
lol.
if not super long can. may 10. walao.

why must you make me so miserable
even on this day.
someone cheer me up pls.

i need you.
but it's too much to ask for.

1:09:00 am
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went to study with charlene just now
then aft tt go for dance
but no dance
and no one told me X

so went to meet charlene again
lucky she hasnt boarded the bus
so we went to study again.
lol
second one not so fruitful
coz awhile only
then went home

i realise that im getting more and more pessimistic and cautious abt certain things
hahaha
talking to charlene made me realise that i've changed alot over the years
my perspective on certain things
my character,
alot la

and started to think alot of my past.
hahaha
ok when gals get together, they talk.
about basically everything
and anything under the moon and sun.
lol

over the years, ive made some wrong ones
and some right ones
mostly wrong ones
what, i shall not mention
enough of pouring my heart out le just now
lol
ok charlene we should talk again soon about.. erm. yeah lol

talking abt sec sch made me miss all my friends whom i was close to
nadiah, atifah, guanhan, wen nan, fatin, yusmar
i miss you guys
we should have a batch outing soon.
but i dont think anyone wants
do you????

fadila babe
i miss going out with you! =(

k im gg supper.
i need to jian fei.=(
bye!

10:40:00 pm
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ooo scandelous pict

had dance at 4pm today.
weee! first weekday that i woke up at ermmm 1pm??
hahahaha

lazy bum ah?

well, choreo-ed finish miss ya.

i think its the fun-nest song ever.

hahaha everytime the song comes on, we laugh, smile and dance

haiz... i need to jian fei. fat le.

pants all tight tight le. =(

no more mcDonalds for me.

hmm maybe only salad or once a week lor.

oh yeah! i bought new hp using the $100 voucher starhub gave.

w850i. wanted to get the k800 but decided the slide thingy was nice

since i never owned a slide phone b4. lol

yest went to ps with my parents and my uncle.

haha yest also went to play bowling with my cousins

now my right arm and hand damn painful =(

one year le never play sudd played for 2 straight days

lol

ok had dance pract just now,

sharon, vi and me took some scandelous pictures. lol

the one on top is one of them

dont we look nice? lol.

9:56:00 pm
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went to meet jwreck for dance today.
haiyo. sat also got dance.
but, its ok.
1 more mth left only. =)

went penin to find the gals' white jacket.
FINALLY found one.
and guess what?
only left 1 and the person not contacting the supplier anymore
bleahx! wth.

then went SMU to dance.
lol
today was quite fun and busy..
wei keat choreo for the miss ya[happy song]
nice nice. hahaha. fun fun.
eileen, regina, sharon, cass, wei keat, evelyn, lesner, fong came.
then even rachel, ian and david were there
to pract for tmr's, oopsie. TODAY's performance.

the reason i'm up so late now. 331am
is because aft dance, went to play bowling with mommy and my cousins and uncles
at OCC[orchid country club] at 10.
hahaha so long never play bowling la... my scores so lousy
first game: 77
2nd: 101
3rd: 68 =p
4th: 79.

hahahaha. so lousy right???

played til like 12+ then my uncle and cousin wanted to play billard
so we went to watch them play
my grandfather even JOINED THE GAME!!!
hahaha soooooo cute la he.
hahahah. the ppl at the table beside us like look and shake heaad.
hahaha
aft tt went for "supper cum breakfast" at this 24hr coffee shop at sembawang rd.

then now, im home
waiting for my food to digest before i sleep
if not, confirm i get fat de.

today i ate damn alot la.
but then my stomach everytime pain i eat.
damn it.

3:27:00 am
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today had jwreck pract from 11.
hahaha
ok of course we didnt start at 11. DUH
we started at ermm... 1?
only me, lesner and wei keat came on time.

pract was rushing like hell.
did formation for am/pm and because im a man.
in the end, haiz damn messy coz most of us didnt know the steps quite well
and we didnt pract alot with steps and formation.

haiz..
but i believe we can do it!
jia you j wreck!

tmr there's pract at SMU
cant wait
now im excited for danceworks

10:53:00 pm
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shit
damn it
fuck it all to hell

WHY WHY WHY?????
tears of fury are never good.
it makes your heart angry
it makes your eyes puffy
it just basically sucks crying.

1:19:00 am
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should have blogged yesterday but
heck whatever
SCHOOL's OVER! YES!
even though i still have papers on the 26th, 27th[super long]
to me, school's over! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can sleep in, can go out, can work!!!
yes!!! hahahaha

ive been waiting 14 weeks for this.
lol ok exaggerating.

some picts taken yest

my twin and me

ss final proj presentation went quite ok yest.
aft tt went to eat.
then celebrated grandf. b'day. wah... he's lived up to an old age.
im happy. lol.

then went out to meet charlene

two scaredy cat ppl
watching horror movie.
hahaha. nonsensical.
aft movie, went to boat quay to just sit, drink and talk.
saw izzat a junior working at coffee beam there.

went for jwreck pract today
wahh get to see all my friends aft so long...
cass! sharon! regina! eileen!
lol.
im forever thankful to wei keat and lesner
coz they contributed damn damn alot for the grp.
and i must work extra hard tmr to remember the new choreo.
one more mth to go.
so short time.
jia you!!

haiz......
i hate myself!
disappointed in myself!
Im such a bad friend. damn it!

11:30:00 pm
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currently doing scripting and storyboarding project
with sara, kelvin and habez.
my twin[leo], eoin and cindy are also here doing ss proj.
Ila, iqah, shafina and charlene are in the syndicate room beside us doing SS too.
Basically everyone is cheong-ing for SS. Last min work again. lol.

tmr is the final proj and last day of the sch year!
YES!
finished the script already.
now doing storyboards and ppt.
lol.
i need to jian fei.[diet]
i spent $10 today just on FOOD alone.
can you believe it?

I am taking a break from doing the ppt.
Coz it is freaking cold.
I dont know what's up with my nose today.
So annoying.
I keep sneezing and sneezing.
Of course, as my friends know, I dont sneeze just once.
more like 4x at a time. lol
so tiring

and hey! I PASSED FINANCE! WOOHOO!
So SHOCKING please.
23/35. lol.
I thought I'd get like 12 or 10 or something.

5:53:00 pm
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the school year is about to end.
haiz... as time flies,
bonds form, break, tighten, loosen.
i guess it's all up to us and fate on what happens to these bonds.

there are always times when we look back at old photographs
or old msgs and remember those past times.
i wonder what has happened.
if i could turn back time, would i change anything?

maybe just one
i'd msg or call my bestie more often
i miss you gal
even though i just saw you last weekend

dont you just wish that you could live up to everyone's expectations?
haiz...
i wish i could be as everyone wants me to be
then i wouldn't hurt so many people

i wish for so many things that can never happen
i thought i'd get over it
but i don't
haiz.. so emo.

i feel like going to the beach,
watch a sunrise or sunset
or just sit and look across the sea
and just let my sorrows, worries fly with the wind
and be washed away by the tide.

if only it were that easy

someone called me "quite fierce"
as in, in handling my problem
but i dont think so

i think im just wearing a mask
that shelters my true feelings, thoughts
i hate it when anyone sees me cry
its embarrassing
but i always do that.
if i could, i'd cry only in my room
away from any prying eyes.

should i just forget it?

10:57:00 pm
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here we are, waiting aimlessly
for the lecturer to start dreamweaver ica
eoin and iqah are beside me
all 3 of us have the dreamweaver tutorials as one of our windows
lol

i cant cant cant wait for holidays to come!!!
2 more days!
woohoo!!!!
one more presentation left!
ss.... nyahahaha

sian la... nothing to do now so i blogged
lazy to read the notes already
so wordy and LOOOONNGGG!
gonna go for danceworks pract today.
miss everyone in j-wreck!
sharon, eileen, cass, fong, lesner, wei keat, eunice and wai!

haiz... sian...i think im going to change my blogskin sooon
hmmm.. eoin's reading the mysbmportal. so bo liao....
iqah's chatting online
and the lecturer is heereee

9:34:00 am
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bleahx!
torrent takes such a long time to dL
but, hehehe im willing to wait.

just now went shopping with azhar
hmmm
been a long time since i saw him
hehe
went to wisma, he bought two tops from topman
then went to taka
i bought this nice brown dress/long shirt from zara
hehehe
then went to far east
actually he wanna find pants but end up i shop
buy sandals
hahaha

then went back to yishun
and i went a little crazy
went to buy devil beside you
hahahaha
azhar was like. OMG IFFAH!
you watch already still wanna buy
well...... YEAH!
hahahaha

tmr dreamweaver test
i think i'll fail it
3 MORE DAYS OF SCH!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!

10:06:00 pm
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im in school lab now d508
suppose to be doing SS final project script with kel and habez
but we are all distracted

its been a long time since i blogged
poor bloggie

i'm sick again.
damn it my immune system so low meh???

was on MC for 2 days. didnt take my finance ica.
but nvm. ms wong super nice let me take today.
then went to the polyclinic to get my ultrascan results.
haiz...
shall not say much la.
they referred me to tts hopsital's gastro for further checks, etc
bleahx.

the next day, wednesday, felt slightly better so i went to sch for PSM test
aft tt went back for doctor's apptment at ttsh
there, the doc looked through the xrays and said a jumble of words which i didn't understand.
haiz...
what's wrong with me???

havent been going for danceworks pract
coz mommy sudd has a case of over protectiveness...
she didn't let me go dance coz she say i not feeling well enough.
sorry j-wreck!

i miss you gals, SHARON, REGINA, EILEEN, CASS!

thurs was presentation combo day
2 presentations in one. wah! SIAN!
first one over ran
i think PMM presentaion went better.

haiz... the year 2s are going for attachment next sem
wont be seeing my seniors til dec.
wont be seeing my eye candy til dec. lol

ONE MORE PROJ TO GO! JIA YOU IFFAH!

i feel quite sad that not even a year has passed and already
friendships have gone astray.
but then again. people change.
or maybe its just that we didn't know each other as well as we thought.
oh well....

valentine's day is coming.
couples hooking up all around.
this is the first year i'll be spending it alone
unless i have some secret valentine
lmao
wtheck iffah....
dream a little dream.....

ok ms knn is walking around.

oopsie charlene just said that she's sick
i think i passed it to her. =P
sorry gal!
now she says she's joking.
silly girl.
hahahaha

holidays coming
i want to go on a holiday getaway
to some island
shop and shop.

i want to enjoy my life while it lasts.

11:24:00 am
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